I think my social phobia is going to ruin my dreams.

Tried something new out in life the other day.
It's always neat when you actually do something completely different and have never ever done it before.  
It's like YES, I'M DOING LIFE RIGHT!
hehe.

I'm trying really hard tonight to keep me safe.

:(

I am tired.  Why am I awake...

I think I might wait every night to see if something wonderful will happen.

My stomach hurts.

The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert

This movie.

Is wonderful.

Also....WRITE WRITE WRITE

I have focus issues.

Sometimes I doubt my memories....if any of the things that happened really happened.

All I have are pictures and scars.  Can hey be replicated? Is anything really happening?

I don't know if I made it up or not.  I've been known to drift off and not come back for awhile....

I don't know...I really can't put my finger on what is happening.

I  just needed to write somewhere where someone would be there.  I feel not so great today.  Really really down.  I'm holding on by a bit.  I literally feel like I'm holding strings together.  I don't want to cry and I want to stop feeling so bad....but Idk how.

I think I feel more trapped than anything.  Very stuck.