Quotes that people use commonly that are full of shit...

"You can't love someone else until you love yourself"

Famous quote...except it's bullshit.

Of course you can.  

I pretty much hate myself and I love my family and I have been in love once.

"You can do anything you put your mind to"

Also bulls poops.

I will never be able to fly.  Not everyone can be in the Olympics.  Not everyone can be an actor. 

EVEN IF THEY TRY THEIR HARDEST.

"If it is meant to be it will happen"

This is the biggest shitter of them all.

You have to make things in life happen. 

 That quote is an excuse to be a lazy fuck.

If you want something to happen, make that shit happen.

Enya...

WHYDOESLORDOFTHERINGSMAKEMEFEELSOMUCH.

I want to be an opera singer....

maybe.

I can't sing.

I like classical love stories... especially ones in a different time period.

I tend to update this thing at night.

Such scattered scattered thoughts.  I even wrote a poem.  A poem! 

Le Cinema fantastique...

So at some point I realized that I need to watch films.  They make me so emotional and so in depth with  myself that I remember what it's like to really feel normal things.  Wonderful beautiful feelings that are not painful.  Even sad movies that I can't take...I love them.  They make me real. I'm not trying to be anything then or trying out personalities anymore.  I'm really just sitting there watching a film and letting everything go.  

I need to be part of the film industry.   I feel like it's what I am supposed to do and I don't believe in fate.

I feel like crying now.  I need to do this.  I really really really need to do this.

I tried watercolor painting...

I'm not so great at it.

Le sigh.