Today is my 22nd Birthday.

*makes a wish and blows candles out*

Today is my last day of being 21. 

21.

I remember thinking about it when I was younger.

So crazy.  

I've been able to drink at a bar for a  almost a year...but I will forever be carded. 

hehe.

THIS WEEK IS CRAZY

I saw The Hobbit yesterday.  Amazing.
Today I am getting off my braces after 2 years and 8 months of them.  I think I will actually miss them.
Thursday is my 22nd birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

It's super late and I'm up again.

I have to stop doing this.

My mind is racing and I feel angry and sad.  

I need sleep and to be at peace.

I'm really tired and it's super late....

I beat Deus Ex: Human Revolution and it was beautiful and futuristic and Adam Jensen is wonderful.

 
There is a fan made movie being made.

Here is the teaser.



And this is the Sarif Industries commercials that played when the game was releasing



I get so emotional with video game and book characters.

I seriously feel like I feel more for them then real people.

It's weird...and sad...and idk.

Someone did a recreation of Toy Story LIVE ACTION.....

I can't believe I didn't drop a class before the drop/add date. I feel so stupid.  There is going to be a fucking W in the grade book because I dropped two days after the date. 

oh my god...I am so fucking unorganized and dumb and a million things that are bad more.

What

I think I finally fixed my schedule.

One class I'm still deciding on but besides that it looks okay.  I go to school far too many times though which is incredibly unfortunate.  So I'm taking several Psychology courses and watercolor.

I'm listening to amazing music from Deus Ex and it's becoming more and more difficult to write this post.

Okay. It's over now.

I kinda want to film some commercials to get a feel for the camera with that PSA.  Just feeling out the cam.  I really want to shoot a slow motion scene but I have to get a hold of Sony Vegas to do some editing and it probably won't run on my laptop anymore because of the amount of stuff I have on here.

I need to sleep.  I had a weird sub sleep session when I got back from school today.  I think it was because I didn't eat anything.  I was dizzy but not really and couldn't feel very well. So I laid completely under my blanket for a long while and finally fell asleep. I had weird dreams about ghost dogs and owls.

When I woke up, I felt like I almost died for some reason and it made me worry that I hadn't said everything I wanted to say to people.  But I still feel that sad pathetic ache not to say anything. 

What.

First day of Spring Semester tomorrow.

Not excited. EXCEPT. I will probably be seeing Manfriend between classes to go see a movie.

YES.

PSA

I finally figured out what my first film project with my new camera will be.

I had been thinking about making a PSA for suicide in teens and I totalllllly can do it now.

It won't be expensive and it's short so I don't have to stress about too many lines or scenes and such.

YESSS. 

Just have to plan on where it will be shot, how many people would be willing to do it and I'm able to get and then pick the music.

I still need to buy the lcd screen and figure out what editing program to use...ugh and buy the connecting wire thing...

I forgot about all that.