Tonight went a lot better than expected.

I was waiting for  heavy fights the whole day.

Nothing happened.

Thank you for letting everything play out smoothly.

Upstream Color

My ex boyfriend just asked his girlfriend to marry him….
This is weird and idk why.
I feel like we are still children….
I can’t understand it.
Are grown ups fake kids?

Are adults just kids pretending to be adults?
I was his first kiss…..this is so weird. 
Why is this so WEIRD?!

Felt a bit better today. Still very on edge. I walk on egg shells when I start thinking about things.  I literally have to avoid topics in my brain or I feel like I did last night.  I don't know how to keep it together.

How do people just.....live?

I can't take it....

I kinda want to disappear...not die but disappear... or maybe I do want to die. I don't know.

I feel sad and I see so many people sad and disappointed.

It hurts too much.  My chest and throat ache. Everyone is so sad.

Everything hurts so much.

YES

I'M ALMOST DONE WITH THIS SEMESTER.

LESS THAN A WEEK TO GO.

I.CAN'T.WAIT.

Gotta start writing.  I'd like to learn how to act too.

Happy Birthday my old friend<3 span="">

People are so  fdsjafhelksajfdlksj….

I'm really sick of them.  Sometimes I wonder why I like psychology so much.

I wish I could just live on my island already.

All Gendahs

I have not slept....I have to be up in 30 minutes.  I watched a movie though and about finished my painting.  So that feels good.  I also just threw up....which was not fun but my tummy feels better and I'm not nauseous.  Staying up late always makes me feel that way.

I like this song.


Someone on one of my blogs messaged me that they couldn't tell what gender I was by what I wrote and my sarcasm.  It made me really really happy.  I don't like being defined as a GIRL for the what I like and how I write or sound.  I have always thought of myself as very in between.  I was a tom boy growing up but I never thought of it that way until someone pointed it out. I was just me being me.  Interesting though.  I like it.