There was a chill in the air

Mix-Match Paragraphs, Give A Dog A Scone....

I've been on here a few times and started typing and then just exitted the screen.   I have to keep typing or at least writing in a journal like a use to.  Diary? Why is diary feel embarrassing compared to like journaling? I don't know but it's kinda funny.  I have a lot to do in the next 3 weeks. A fifteen page paper is due, regular school work, I'm losing insurance so I need to sign up for something new, possible doctor appointments, and also deal with well...being me which is annoying.  Less of me would be nice.  

One really cool thing I've been doing lately that makes me really really happy is I've been playing the game Rocksmith on Bass guitar with Manfriend who plays his regular electric guitar.  It's like guitar hero except with the real notes and you play along to the tabs.  I am getting really good at a few songs and the overall feel of playing bass.  I taught myself how to play in middle school but it has been so long. I can slowly feel myself getting better at finding the notes on the strings without looking down and I love it and feels good to play music again.  I don't know the actual notes yet but playing has been so much fun.  I feel proud when I play the songs better and that feeling overall is just weird for me to experience.

We went to the beach twice last week and it was glorious.  I haven't actually gone to the beach properly in awhile and I missed it so much.  Ocean water heals me.  Mind body soul.  My skin gets ultra soft, my eyes turn super bright, my hair looks like a goddess, my heart feels more at peace, and my brain feels ...I don't know...interesting in the best way possible.  I feel like I am just supposed to live there but something happened at birth where I can't breathe underwater and I constantly have to revisit the sea to recharge and regain health.  I might actually get to go tomorrow if I get some work done.  I actually worry about moving too far away from the ocean and nice beaches which I am lucky to live so close to.  I don't think I've ever lived further than 30 or 40 minutes away from the sea.

Is lilac wine real? I love that song so much.  Anyway................................

Get It...

I've been feeling really eh.  It comes and goes so quickly though it honestly is impossible to stay up to date.  I can feel really great about something and then tragically sad about it and want to stay in bed all day in mere seconds.  I kind of hate it.  I'm not reliable.  If I was reliable, and in my working mode that I sometimes get into, I can get so much done in a morning what usually takes me a week(s).  How do people just get stuck in that super mode.  I need to do that.  I need to do that so much.  At least more than I can now.  I need to be better.  

Here or There...

Soooo I filmed something random yesterday and ended up deleting it all but it was so nice to just film something at all.  It's really hard to film yourself when you don't have a camera that has a flip screen or separate screen though.  I ended up thinking up (from a little inspiration) a short movie that wouldn't require much at all if I keep it simple and not try to complicate it which I tend to do with everything.  I ordered a steadicam yesterday that was pretty cheap considering how much they can cost. I need 5 people for the film.  Four of the parts are pretty minimal but the main character is in all of it.   I don't want to film myself or be in it or really any of my movies right now until I feel more comfortable with myself, but I don't really have anyone else that can be in it as much as I can.  So that is what is making me nervous about the whole project and that I am much better at getting the angles I want if I am not the one in the scene.  I am also trying to figure out some lighting details.  I am mainly going to use natural light as I do with photography but for certain inside shots, I need some type of warm light.  I have a lamp I can use that looks nice even in photos, but for some bathroom scenes, the light in there is not quite what I need.  I'm pretty excited nonetheless.  Even if this is an abomination, it will have been fun to make.

*Snaps Fingers

I turned 27 last month and then a week or two after that I was mistaken for being in Elementary school.  Just a fun fact.