You know what would be tragic?

If you couldn't keep your emotions and feelings the same.  They would change from day to day.

You couldn't make decisions without being sure they were right because the next day they might feel just as wrong.

You couldn't know what the very next emotion expressed would be because today might not be today but it could be tomorrow or the next hour, minute, second...moment.

You couldn't tell someone you loved them..... 

because who you are tomorrow will not...

Oh, wait.

I want to write...but I'm not sure what.

So many things in my head.  Crowded like a busy train station.  So many feelings and worries.  So many thoughts speeding by.  The medicine doesn't slow anything down...the medicine doesn't really do anything at all.  Good thing it only costs 5 dollars.

We are to be moving soon.  Already lots of boxes in my room.  I've read lots of books lately.  Or maybe it feels like lots.  So many stories about people that don't exist and yet they seem important to me and matter to me....more than most conversations I have in real life.  

I would like very much to be on my island now.  

I've waited quite a long time...

Oh Alex...

I am in love with...

Now I don't hardly know her...

I want to sing on a stage and play an instrument.

I wish I could sing.

I wish I could play more instruments.

I want to be a rock star.

Phase?

Do not teenagers have phases?

I feel like I want to try everything.

Bad and Good.

Crimson and Clover is stuck in my head.

Quotes that people use commonly that are full of shit...

"You can't love someone else until you love yourself"

Famous quote...except it's bullshit.

Of course you can.  

I pretty much hate myself and I love my family and I have been in love once.

"You can do anything you put your mind to"

Also bulls poops.

I will never be able to fly.  Not everyone can be in the Olympics.  Not everyone can be an actor. 

EVEN IF THEY TRY THEIR HARDEST.

"If it is meant to be it will happen"

This is the biggest shitter of them all.

You have to make things in life happen. 

 That quote is an excuse to be a lazy fuck.

If you want something to happen, make that shit happen.

Enya...

WHYDOESLORDOFTHERINGSMAKEMEFEELSOMUCH.

I want to be an opera singer....

maybe.

I can't sing.

I like classical love stories... especially ones in a different time period.

I tend to update this thing at night.

Such scattered scattered thoughts.  I even wrote a poem.  A poem!