I've been having really awful dreams lately.
Really sick reminders of the past.
I also had this strange feeling overcome me that turned into disgust and I started crying.
It felt really weird.  

I see faces in my head and hands and have weird memories of things I can't exactly remember.

Then I feel disgusting.  A disgust that is hard to explain but within.  Really stained within me.  I can't scrub it out.  It just sits there. 

I don't like that they've been haunting me so frequently.  I don't like remembering what happened.  

It can stay in the past.