I think about graduating this year a lot. I'm hoping it revives my goals in life or something. I still remember how good it felt to graduate from high school. It actually threw me off when I did. I was really sad to leave and still don't like that I did, but I felt accomplished....and that's a really rare feeling for me. I didn't think I'd feel that way. I really hope I feel it again. I don't know if I'll be able to continue on to graduate school without feeling like I'm moving forward in my life in some way or another. It's becoming painfully obvious to me that money is the only way that I will ever break into the film industry. I am too shy to apply anywhere and lack the motivation or endurance to write a full script. Do I have ideas? YES. Which is great and I'm happy about, but they mean nothing if I can't express them. It seems like a lot of things don't mean much if you can't show for it unfortunately. I love the idea of writing songs. I think of lyrics quite often but I don't know how to write music. It seems I need help to complete numerous things. I'd really like to produce a song some day with my voice and instrumentals. That would be so lovely.
As far as my brain goes, I seem to be doing worse. It's so weird being a Psych major and having psychological disorders. It makes everything really complicated and clear at the same time. I have a primary doctor's appointment on Tuesday to check bodily things out. I was just at an Urgent Care and found out I have Bronchitis and am on lots of meds plus asthma nebulizer stuffs. So we will see what she says about my general health on Tuesday. I want to ask about how much I should weigh. I've never asked a doctor that before and I'm wondering if they will have a clear response. I also have found that within the doctors that I go to, I think there is a psychiatrist available that may take my insurance. That would be really fantastic if it is true. I need to get on some head meds again as soon as possible. It's so weird to be able to observe your own insanity but not be able to control it. It's so dang weird.
As far as my brain goes, I seem to be doing worse. It's so weird being a Psych major and having psychological disorders. It makes everything really complicated and clear at the same time. I have a primary doctor's appointment on Tuesday to check bodily things out. I was just at an Urgent Care and found out I have Bronchitis and am on lots of meds plus asthma nebulizer stuffs. So we will see what she says about my general health on Tuesday. I want to ask about how much I should weigh. I've never asked a doctor that before and I'm wondering if they will have a clear response. I also have found that within the doctors that I go to, I think there is a psychiatrist available that may take my insurance. That would be really fantastic if it is true. I need to get on some head meds again as soon as possible. It's so weird to be able to observe your own insanity but not be able to control it. It's so dang weird.
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