I WAS ACCEPTED INTO GRADUATE SCHOOL

Yes!

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Please Welcome... 

ELI BIRB

So I did end up adopting a bird, not a conure sadly (but I'm secretly planning to get one) but a lovely little Quaker Parrot (Monk Parakeet)!

I adopted him from this lady that runs a bird rescue at her house.  Manfriend and I drove all the way to her to go see this little birb I had been considering and he ended up giving me lots of kisses when we were there and I just kinda was smitten.  she also had a really good price for a nice cage.  I kinda honestly want to get him a bigger cage and use this one for another bird in the future because he is not huge but indeed bigger than a green cheek conure.

He has a permanently fractured wing that you can't see in this pic on his right side but can still fly. He was lovely for the first week but I think we are out of the honeymoon phase and he is testing everyone.  So far he has been really good with me though except for one day in which he was just totally off in general.  I feed him zupreem pellets, nutriberries, and fresh fruit and veggies (have to work on getting more veggies).

So hopefully he will be able to help me in some therapeutic way.  The first thing I've noticed is just that I have to get up in the morning to take care of him and that in itself is great.  People never realize how hard it is to get up when you are depressed.

So I am in the process now of establishing myself with him and then moving on to step up commands which is going to be a little more difficult because of his balance issues, but I'm sure if I work on it he will get through it.

Hopefully this was a good idea.  

Thank you Manfriend for making this possible!

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Birds...

So I've had some weird obsessions with becoming a professional mermaid, moving out to a tiny house so I can have my own tiny space with a cat, dog, fish, and a bird, and just basically saying blah to the rest of the world.   I've always been kind of scared of birds because I was attacked by one when I was younger, but I went by an exotic bird store with Manfriend because we haven't been there since the dinosaur parakeet incident, and I had been considering a lot of options besides dogs and cats for a companion animal and a bird was just kinda stuck there even though I am scared of them.  So we go into this shop with a screaming cockatoo that the owner is even getting a headache from, but I honestly don't mind as much because I am just so excited to be around animals.  So I nervously view all them and really want to hold one this time and try to get over my fear.  I've read a lot about some species of birds and really wanted to see the cockatiels and maybe budgie parakeets.  So we ask the owner if she can show us and she says the budgies are not hand tamed quite yet so will still bite, but the cockatiels are new babies and will just be scared but not bite.  So I put my hand in, reliving events of before of my hand being ripped apart, and find out they are just being silly and kind of scared but not hurting me.   THIS makes me so happy that I don't know what to do with myself and decide I really want a bird.  Alas, I find out that cockatiels are really bad (as I had read) for people with asthma or allergies because they are one of the types of birds that release a sort of dust from their wings.  So big loud cockatoos are out and sadly my first choice of cute cockatiels follows (even though I secretly want to get one anyway).  So the owner talks to us lots about all different birds and I get to hold her wayyy larger caique which apparently is a lady killer and is whistling at me and doesn't want me to put him down.  I'm so flattered by it but he is just so huge I'm reliving once again the beak incident even though he was lovely and docile.  So at this point, the owner pulls out a red-bellied conure.  Now, the bad incident I had was with I think a pineapple conure or sun conure? Either way, same type of bird just different coloring.  I also failed to mention earlier that the only reason I had ever considered a bird ever again and went to this shop is because at another shop some time ago, I decided to trust another conure and put my hands in the cage, and he was the sweetest, cutest and most adoring thing, and I cried right there in the store because animal affection is just too much for my heart.  So she pulls out this little cute thing and tells me that he is super sweet and tells me to let him step up on me.  My heart is palpating but he is just so cute but I'm hoping he doesn't  draw blood.  INSTEAD, he is the sweetest most adorable little birdie.  He looks at me and turns around in circles and starts displaying his wings at me.  I slowly go to rub his neck and he adores it and closes his eyes a bit.  Then he starts to climb up my arm, but the owner said to hold him on my hands when he's this young to show our equal dominance because to them, height is everything.  So I just carefully pick him up and put him back on my finger and he seems super content and displays his wings again and is just all around being cute.  The owner tells me they tend to be very silly and playful and him displaying his wings to me and turning all around and such is showing that he is already extremely comfortable and taken with me.  She then scoops him up onto his back and starts kissing him and then places him back on my finger.  At this point I'm on the verge of tears staring at Manfriend and he is smiling at me and tells me he wants to get me this bird but of course its like 450 dollars.  So the store is closing and I sadly give the bird back and talk more to the lady about birds and I just .....the affection of animals is like one of the things in life I live for.  Oh my heart!

This whole experience was really great for me to get  more comfortable around birds but I did realize that this place breeds birds.  I don't believe in breeding because it's in excess and their are already tons of birds that need adopting.  So I'm super conflicted because I fell in love with this bird that I feel I shouldn't purchase.  It's sad.  So I have been looking at bird adoption centers, and as I thought, there are lots of birds that need love.  So hopefully I will be visiting some of those places soon. 

Adopt! Don't shop!    (even if you fell in love...)

WELCOME DOC BROWN AND MARTY MCFLY

And so it is...

I always think to type "it's been awhile.." or something to that nature because I always take these several month breaks before I write something else.  Honestly though, I have wanted to write more on here but we didn't have internet...so of course we do now.  For how long, I do not know.  In any case, I was just reading through my old movie reviews and I really miss doing those and I should do more of them.  I am not home as often as I'd like to be though and my glorious old laptop can't serve as a mobile device any longer.  I can't risk destroying its existence.  So if I end up doing more, it probably won't be nearly as often.

One thing that I'm proud of myself for doing that I hadn't had the chance to while in college is read for pleasure.  I read A LOT in college, but for school related purpose and not anything I chose (not that I didn't ever enjoy what I read).  But starting this past summer, I started reading things I felt like I should have read and have continued to do so.  So I went from reading only a few books if that in the summer, to reading, well what am I at now... I actually am not sure.  I started going to library again and finally was able to get a library card, and that has really helped with the amount of books I have access to read.  I have books, they are just packed.  I think I'm probably on my 9th book since starting late in the summer, perhaps July-ish.  Not that I couldn't have read more, but I do take breaks and am taking a chem course with lab.  My book choices have been really interesting too.  I'm going through a southern novel stitch right now and it's lovely.  At first it was a young adults Native American story To Walk Two Moons, then The Road, The Outsiders, Water For Chocolate, This Side of Paradise, 1602, which is a comic book, To Kill a Mocking Bird, Their Eyes Were Watching God, and I'm reading now the new Harper Lee book, Go Set A Watchman.  I'm just really excited about it.  I have several more in line that are considered "classics".  I just wanted to catch up on things I feel like I should have read but also have the freedom to read what I want to read.  I've liked them all for different reasons though so far, so I'm enjoying myself thoroughly.  I am in the process of trying to do a book club because I constantly want to talk about what I read with people, but most people have either read the book and don't remember it as detailed as I do because I had just read it, or have not read it.  A friend of mine agreed to have tea and book clubbin' on Fridays with me but she is very busy with two jobs so I don't have much faith in it.  I hope it works out though.  I just really like reading and I wish I had more friends to engage with me in it.  This is similar in movies, but I don't always feel as inclined to talk to people about movies.  I never really realized that until now.  I want them to experience it, but I'm not exactly jumping up and down for a reaction.  I just want them to see it is all.  I don't think that means I don't like movies as much, I just am content with how I feel about it I guess. I don't know.  With that, I unfortunately don't have as much access to movies as I use to so I haven't been keeping up with that which makes me sad.  I use to watch at least 3 films a week and now it's rare.  I don't have netflix or other means right now...so I will just be sad...right here...typing...weh.

I had an idea of what I wanted to write about before I started and I can't remember.  EH.

OHHHH.  Was it Halloween?  Probably.  I've been so over the top about it since summer, I'm sure that's what it was.  That has to be about what it was.  I have several ideas of what I want to be this year that could even be used for future cons that I could go to if I ever have money ever in my life.  This year, I was thinking of being Marty McFly dressed in his 2015 clothes as it is 2015 and he and Doc will be arriving this month on the 21st.  I think they are putting the movie in theaters again on that date, and I want to go dressed as such.  I found a website that sells the shoes and jacket and hat, but I'm not sure if I can get them yet.  If not, I kinda put it in my head already that this would not be possible, so I'm not too saddened by it.  I made some money this summer, and I was going to use it on a new computer (depending on how much I had made by the end) or on saving up slowly for a computer and using it for Halloween things because I'm obsessed with this holiday and all things encompassing. But my family ended up needing basically all of it, so I am broke...again. Weh. 

HAllowEEn though.. Omg. Marty McFly, Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas, a Voodoo doll, some kind of mystical wolf or bird creature...I'm not sure.   I really wanted to hide my face this year but we will see.

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GUSH...

I just read the kids some of my old stories I had started and some poems I had done and they really enjoyed them and wanted to hear more.  It made me feel really good about things I had done in the past and about the potential to do better and continue the stories and writing.  They made me feel a good kind of nostalgia when I read them, which is so incredibly rare for me.  Nostalgia, in general, is my enemy, but not in these moments.  It felt so good to read them again.  Even the not so great written ones.  The stories felt solid though.  I was kinda proud at first and then felt so much more when the kids expressed they liked them.  They really made  my night.

THEY ARE THE BEST.