Memory...

This makes me incredibly sad.  

I remembered why I created my island.

They always let you down...                        always.

And then...

My Birthday weekend was awesome all because of family and friends! Canoeing, dinner and a movie!  Thank you!  Surprise cheesecakes are awesome too ;)  hehe.  Oh, and I received an awesome pocket watch.  I will post pics of it soon.

SCHOOL...is uninteresting to me.  WHAT HAPPENED?!  If I read it alone I love the information but at school...oh my gosh..I don't know why the teachers are bugging me so much this semester.  I need to get over it and just LISTEN.

 

Weekend...

The weekend looks promising.  So excited. 

Friday: Spending time with fam tonight which should be awesome.

Saturday:  Taking my brother to his friends house and spending time with the kids for a bit then heading to my friends house to hang out, have dinner and movie and go to the beach (YAY).

Sunday:  Might be going to an Italian Festival with fam and then hanging out with my best friend to have some sort of picnic.  Hopefully later I will be dying my hair.

The Three Hundred and Sixty-Fifth Day

I've officially had my blog for one year. 

:D

The List....

So last night was interesting.  Met a new person who is rather nice.  Went out to a crazy club with crazy people.  Saw a drag show.  Danced with a random person.  Moved my hips to a beat ;)  Made up a club game.  Fun fun experience.  Surprisingly was the only one of our group who was not deafened by LOUD club music.  Inhaled enough second hand cigarette smoke for a chest pain in the morning.  Tried something new(it's a secret).  Listened to a conspiracy theorist as I slurped a slurpee.  Ended up in two different beds(whoah, that is not what it sounds like).  Yea.  I think I'm doing well with my list so far.  

This weekend coming up I'm finishing the list.  Excited.  I haven't decide what color to dye the bottom layer of my hair yet though. 

List...

HELP ME MAKE A LIST OF TEENAGE THINGS TO DO!  DYING MY HAIR IS ON THE LIST! AND GOING TO A CLUB! WOOT! MORE THINGS MUST BE ADDED!

Talkin'...

I saw a friend of mine today.  We talked for some time about all the things that have been happening.  Goodness...life is so crazy.  And then we got a smoothie because I don't know if you are aware but smoothies soothe the worried soul. YEP.  I'm about to head over to main campus for my first day of Film History.  I am rather excited.  I hope the teacher knows his stuff.  

I've had a lot things on my mind lately (not that that's anything new).  I'm worried about what college I'm going to next fall and I can't get this sense of rejection from everyone and everything away from my head.  It's hard to stay focused and hopeful when I feel this intense sense of near abandonment.  I'm trying to stay positive but I've almost trained myself not to be.  I am ridiculous.  

I talked with my counselor last week more about Prolonged Exposure.  At this juncture in my life...I would not be able to even start this 10 week process.  It sounds so scary.  It basically would be me repeating everything that happen to me in detail over and over again to someone.  They even record it and have me listen to it.  I think there are worksheets and some other type of counseling.  I still can't imagine having to say every single detail over and over again.  Just a bit intense for me. 

Movies...

I've been watching lots of movies lately.  Makes me happy.  I watched I Love You Philip Morris yesterday which is about the famous "King of Cons" Steven Jay Russell. I also went to the movies with my friend and we saw Black Swan.  It was not what I thought it would be but I loved it.  Very interesting.  I'm going to rewatch it alone though.  There were so many people talking during the movie.  I was really happy I saw it in the theater besides the fact that I wanted to punch everyone in the head that was talking.  I like losing myself in movies.  It's probably one of the things I love most about films.  I'm just gone. gone. gone.

Lack there of...

I didn't sleep at all last night but instead watched the T.V. series Skins.  I liked it a lot.  I can't explain why.  Maybe because I have  my own serious issues that most people don't know about and I could have totally been friends with some of the people on the show if they were real.  Anyhoo.  Got the second season already loaded up.  I am also watching Mad Men.  Pretty darn cool so far.  I got the soundtrack to the first season of Skins and there is this song originally by Cat Stevens called Wild World that plays at the finally but was redone by Mike Bailey that I love.  I want to post it here. Maybe I'll just link you right HERE. hehe. I  like it a lot. It is so very sad and pretty.  Enjoy it.  

Floating...

I have to wake up in less than 20 minutes...

A start...

I started working out again today! Excited.  I need motivation and inspiration constantly.  Gotta figure out how to keep at it. 

I watched the original Tron with my fam last night.  It was neat.  I'm lovin' the young Jeff Bridges.  It really is a great little story.  Seeing the first one makes me want to watch the sequel even more.  We also watched The Lawnmower Man.  Odd but neat in its own way.  I watched a movie on my own called Lars and Real Girl.  It has to do with a lonely guy who buys a sex doll for a girlfriend.  It's cute and silly.  An interesting watch if you're looking for something new.

School is starting up again this week.  I like not having to worry about it.  I stress about school way too much.  I hope this semester goes well.  I'm not really excited about any classes I'm taking to be honest because the one class I had been looking forward to was canceled but I hope everything I signed up for ends up being interesting.   

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